Too tired to read, Day 308

Art, Day 293

In between, Day 214

Nicolai is at an interesting stage where he has these moments of independence and then the complete opposite occurs and he wants everything done for him. For example, he told me he couldn't remove the peel from the half piece of banana I gave him the other night. I just have to laugh and remember that this too shall pass.

Camera shy, Day 182

This is what Nicolai does when he doesn't want his photo taken. Today I was happy with his resistance.

My mom, Day 169

My mom can be playful, joyous, and she is not afraid to act silly. She and Nicolai had a leaf fight in the backyard and their laughter was contagious.

First snow, Day 154

As the first flakes drift from the sky my world quietly settles down and life readjusts itself. Its pace is forced to a shuffle as the wet caresses my cold cheeks and tongue reminding me to look at my surroundings while this transformation is taking place. But this transformation is not just outside of myself, it seeps into my bones making me shiver and quake from excitement waiting for a glimpse of the landscape blanketed under a monochromatic palette.

Abracadabra, Day 135

I am bearing witness to the garden as life transforms itself into something else. The leaves are changing color and the flowers are dying. But just as quickly as the color disappears and replaces itself with brown I am confident it will reappear in the spring like magic.

The dream, Day 47

I had a dream last night that was vivid and yet so obscure at the same time that I didn't know what to think about it. I woke up feeling raw, like my mind had been through an amazing and a disturbing journey. I revisited it over and over again throughout my day. It was embedded in my mind just as if I had lived through the actual experience. I love dreams like this, they are rare and magical gifts and I am glad they don't happen very often.

Seeing is believing, Day 18

Some days I can see what is right in front of me and it makes perfect sense (like yesterday), and other days I can't see anything at all (like today). I was really struggling with what today's image would be. I was mentally trying to force something that wasn't there; trying to create on demand versus relying on my intuition. So tonight I sat down to edit images and I have to admit that I was not excited at all by my prospects. All day long I had visually in mind the color green, the shape of a backwards "C", and the letter "X"....but nothing was visually connecting while I was photographing. I felt like I had "been there and done that." But everything changed when I cropped today's image and placed it next to the previous day's image. I began to see the subtle lines in the sheets that are now made more obvious by the shape of the highway above. These are visual connections that I cannot plan, they just happen. Today's lesson: the more I shoot, the more I can begin to trust in my third eye.