Lucky, Day 41

I admit to completely objectifying my husband as I did to myself (unintentionally) yesterday. And perhaps there is nothing wrong in this. I think about not only watching my own body age, but my husband's as well. Is it a gradual realization or do you just wake up next to someone one day and notice the changes? My lesson is to enjoy what I have while I have it....whatever "it" is. My friend Wendy and I used to fall asleep listing all the things we felt lucky for in our lives leaving the day on a positive note. I am lucky for having him in my life...not only for how he looks and feels, but who he is as a husband, a partner, a father to our child, and a life collaborator. I am very lucky.

Blue, Day 34

blue flow
pumping
breath willing desire
please take my hand

Head, Spine, Tail, Day 24

I am fascinated by the the terminology used for the parts of a book and their reference to the body-head, spine, tail, footnote, and headnote. I see my body as a story that is in the process of being written. As the lines on my hands and face deepen I am reminded of this evolving story. As much as aging and watching my body change can be disconcerting I need to remind myself that this is just part of life's process. If my body doesn't age then my story has come to its end.

The toenail fairy, Day 19

Trimming my son's toenails has been a constant battle. At one point they were so long that they were dangerous weapons. So one night I snuck into his room with a headlamp and a pair of nail clippers and attempted to trim them while he was sleeping . It actually took me two nights to complete the task, but it happened. In the morning I told him the toenail fairy came and since then he asks me to call her and have her trim them again.

There's no place like home, Day 15

Red shoes make me happy. I love looking down at my feet with them on. When I wear them they always seem to take me somewhere exciting, like Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz. Even if they just take me into my backyard.

Nico, Day 14

Stains on the fingers act as a diary for the day's activities.